I Just Need Her

There is something wrong with me. I want to be a good boy. Is this to ask too much? I am just a child mind in an old body. I have done too wrongness lately. I just want to change my life and make it better. Some times I want to cry, but I just can not. Some times I want to cut myself to see how much it bleeds. Some times I just want a hug, but there is no such a person who thinks I am so special for her. I want a hug, but not a friendly one, I want a lovely one.

I know I do not deserve to be loved because I have not loved deeply before. I feel rounded of loneliness. I have friends, some of them are really good friends. I have God by my side, and He is the only one who supports me everyday for not to pass away. I have common family. Common does not mean normal. we are just better when we are not in touch. There is an empty space. This space is just for her.

She is not coming yet. I have not found her, or she has not found me yet. It might be that it is my fault, so I have not realized she is just here by my side, and I can not see her because I do not think she is the one who I am looking for. If you love me just hug me and kiss me. Let me know you are right here. Do not leave me down, and do not let me fall again.

Money Learning

Money can not buy love, but it can buy people for marriage.

Money can not buy friendship, but it can buy people to hang out with you.

Money can not buy respect, but it can buy people to honor you.

Money can not but  beauty, but it can buy surgeries to make someone beauty.

Money can not buy health, but it can buy doctors.

Money can not buy volunteering, but it can buy people to do whatever anyone wants.

Money can not buy making love, but it can buy sex.

Money can not make an old computer better, but it can buy a better computer

Money can not bake a cake, but it can buy it already baked.

Money can not buy security, but it can buy bodyguards.

Money can not make funny a joke, but it can buy people laughing.

Money can not buy a warm weather, but it can buy a travel ticket to a warm place.

Money can not buy time, but it can buy people to stay long lasting.

Anyway, money is not powerful by itself, it is powerful when it is used to fulfill people's desires.

Finally and the most important, Money can not build happiness, money buys it already well done!!!

This Is Me

Do you want to really know me? Learn from the songs. Each one of the following songs has so much of myself on their lyrics. You just need to pay enough attention to learn the way I am, where I come from, and where I am going. Sorry if I disappoint you on some way.

 

Bandoleros - Don Omar f/ Tego Calderon

Cleaning out my closet - Eminem

Dilemma - Nelly

Gangsta's Paradise - Coolio

Gracias a la vida - Mercedes Sosa

Graduacion (friends for ever) - Vitamin C

I believe I can fly - R. Kelly

Ironic - Alanis Morrissette

Life for rent - Dido

Lo grande que es perdonar - Vico C

Luis - Franco De Vita

Mueren por me - El Cartel de Santa

No basta - Franco De Vita

Procedimiento para llegar a un buen acuerdo - Panda

Perdoname - La Factoria

Ridin' - Chamillionaire

Runaway - Linking Park

Sobreviviendo - Mercedes Sosa

The man who sold the wold

The World's greatest - R. Kelly

till I collapse - Eminem

Vuele Bajo - Facundo Cabral

Voy a pasarmelo bien - Hombres G

What's my age again - Blink-182

With arms wide open - Creed

Just Asking

Is not it funny when you want something with all you strength, but it does not ever happen; then, just when you do not want it anymore, it appears?

Is not it funny when you want to chat with someone who is busy, and you wait for so long; then, when you both start chatting you both get mad because any of you do not understand each other's feeling?

Is not it funny when you try to find the right one, but that person never comes to your life; then, you realize that this person is already in your past? (the second part has not happened to me yet)

Is not it funny when you just want to feel beloved, and loneliness is the only stuff around you; then, you find that there is no one who loves you more than as a friend?

Is not it funny when people around you tell someone you are bad influence, and you just do not care; then, the people who said you are bad influence just need your knowledge?

Is not it funny when you spend so much time on something, and you work on it as hard as possible; then you realize that this time was wasted instead of spent?

Is not it funny when you are starving, and you want your favorite food; then when you get your meal, you do not feel appetite for anything anymore?

Is not it funny when you just want anybody to hug you, and you just smile at someone like asking for it; then, the person goes away without giving you not even a hand shake?

Is not it funny when you feel press on your chest, and you just want someone to caress you; then there is no one who want to caress you making you feel like the least person on earth?

Is not it funny when you read this blog, and you feel sorry for the stuff that have happened to you or feel sorry for the person who wrote this; then, you just want to try give hope yourself or to the person who wrote this?

Once Again

I know there is some time I have not written anything, but as you should know by this time, this blog is just to express myself when I feel down. Hopefully, one day I will write about my happiness instead. When I built this blog I put as a goal to write at least one each month. April has finished, but I did not write anything. I failed one goal, once again.

This time has been tough. People have walked in and out of my life. They came and went, but they have ever left something in my life, even if what they left was pain. This pain reminds me that I not a gold coin to be accepted for every one who knows me.

I might be wrong, and people around me would be just busy (like the song Stan). I just need vacations, not necessarily of studying but for taking a very deep sleep, and when I wake up, everything should be much better.

This is the time to go, to run away. I just would like to be strong enough to do so. SORRY people, I am not that strong. I just can not give up! I will stand up until my body and my soul collapse, but they have to collapse at the same time.