Blind

People says love is blind, but it thepends of themselves, or yourself I might say. Love is not a feeling, it is a choice. Surely, there are a huge difference yet not on the way people may think.

If you feel love; then, for sure you are blid. Feel comes from past expererience. If it is good you like it, if it is bad you dislike it. If there is a mixture, you might end up hating.

On the other hand, if you choose loce, you are wise. valuing not what have happened before, but also valuing what it could get to be. Certainly, this is not easy, and it can be a complete mess and neurons burn; it will completely worth it for the choice you take: love or give it up.

Yet there is a must: choices never should take while angry as never shall promise while happy. For sure I can tell you, and for expirience, I have taken wrong decisions and made and broke some promises.

In brief, love is mental such comes from brain, not from heart that a blood pump. Nervous can also trik  you, it can make your heart bit faster, feel butterflies in your stomach. So, you just have to choose, and remember: there are no wrong choices due to we choose the best option acording to the information we have.

Anxiety

There are certain moments world just mock on your face. You just need a pause, but it spin even faster. Then, dizziness comes striking your face, pushing your back, crushing your spirit.

There are certain moments you see a light at the end of the tunnel, yet it is not the exit but a huge locomotor runig over your guts. So, instead of succeeding, you just get lower and lower.

There are certain moments you feel so tired that you could get to your bed and fall asleep. Suddenly, you are in your bed and sleep is the least you are able to.

There are certain moments your eyes are burning from inside out. You can close them, but there is noothing else than sourness ripping your brain apart.

There are no other way out; there are no much trust; there are no racional thoughts: the only answer you find is to send the damn world and everything and everyone to hell!!!

This is the racional description of Anxiety.

No More Tears

There a limit on every person, some place they reach where there is nothing else but themselves. People there will not be hable to feel pain, nor pitty, not even hunger. It will be nothing else than energy.

Then, all they need is nothing. They will want nothimg. They will wait nothing. Some people reach this place after death, some other get them on ahead.

It is as simple as the body screams to shut down, while the mind still asking for just one more steep. And afterwars, the body moves, even when it does not understand if it is pain what is felt, or something else.

What is felt? what is this? what is left? So many questions, so few understandable. There is really a chest pressure in here or something else?Are legs still responsive or are already walking the extra mille?

The eyes are unable to cry, are them out of tears? Or they are just confused about what they feel? Is it fear? or Is it the absence of fear? Is it too bright? Or is it too dark?

There is only one truth, but hard to accept: THERE ARE NO WRONG CHOICES, WE ALL MAKE CHOICES ON THE INFORMATION WE HAVE; THEREFORE, WE ONLI HAVE CHOSEN THE BEST CHOICE WITH THE FEW INFORMATION WE GOT.

The hardest part is to live with the outcomes!

Relationships

Relations ships end by different meanings, most of the are truly unreliable. Prior you end one, ask your self or your partner this. . .

If you are not willing to rip off your past, why should I be willing to have a future with you?

How is the right: 'in good and bad, in health and illness, in rich or poor' or 'in good and not that good, in health and not that good, in rich and not that good'?

If you are in a rush, I am the worst you can find: I do not have mayor goals in short terms.

Where were you when I needed you the most?

No one receives what does not deserve! As God do not

Who ends a relation due to delete from any social network (bbm, fb, twitter, . . .)?

Who needs a reason to love? The one who does not try to make the partner better!

Relationships are not a game, and they are not simple. No body should menace your partner with "if you (dont)do...I will end this relationship."

In brief:
Never take a decision while angry, and never make premises while happy!

Pain

Pain has been around me long enough. I am doing my best to get rid of it, but any effort become nothing. Surgery was meant to destroy all pain, but there is "surgical pain" which, certainly is different, is pain after all. True, there are diferent kinds of pain, as there are different levels of pain.

Cathegorizing pain is not a as simple as grading how much it hurts and where it hurts. This is difficult due to some times, pain hides and remains quiet, and some people would say pain at that specific moment is cero. But sudently, it shows up burning from inside out.

Pain has been my friend, it has been around me even when there are no people caring. Just like last day. I wished I had someone close, but everyone has to do something else to do, and the least I want is people feeling just sorry. I would rather  be alone.

I understant all of you have things more important to do, and I am glad you are not suffering, and I ask God not to give you any suffering, so each one will be happy. I set you free to be happy and to choose the way you wish to walk on.

With love and pain,