Enjoying the Time with that One

"Wow" is the word I would use to explain how I enjoyed this last weekend. She is someone so much important to me. I thank God I could be there for such a very important day. She was excited, and who would not? I hope to see her more often because she is a very important person in my life since "I am her 'Javy' and she is my 'Paty.'"

I hope the best for her, and I know she does the same for me. This is a endless relation. She is just her, an important person who will support my decision, even if those are not the best way to develop myself. That does not mean she is not going to get mad, or advice me. It is just a clean love from one to another person.

Patita, how awesome you are! I can not express how much you mean for me, even though we are not close that much. I would like to turn the time back and change some stuffs, but I feel these stuffs have made us stronger.

I have never wrote a blog in honor of someone, but every "never" comes true. This is a blog for you my dear Paty. Remember me in your prayers. Happy B-Day, again.

Surrounded by Angels

I have just one regret with myself. Sometimes, my short vision is not only from my eyes. I should look for soul glasses because there are people who think and care of me. They may not be every day with me, but they are still there for me. I just have to be patient and keep my faith. I understand now that I have people who I talk to every day, but they are not close friends. I also realize here are people who I do not talk so often, but they are really close friends. They truth on me, and I do on them. Those are my angels, my guard angels.

I know I am not the best one, but I am on the way. Sometimes I take wrong decisions. I am not the worst because I am walking away from that way when I cam. Sometimes I learn from my mistakes. These make me think: "I am not completely good, I am not completely bad; this is just me" (this came from yin yang, "Nothing is completely good, nothing is completely bad" and I added "Everything depends on the point of view.")

You, angels, have so much importance in my life. You always are teaching me a lot of new stuff and showing me my mistakes. You make changes on me, and thanks you I am growing as a better person. I owe you my life. You taught me you are not going out of my life; I am going too deep inside myself.

Well, actually, I just want to thank you for all you have helped me and I also have a question for you, what does DTB mean?

Learning

I go through the life watching, hearing, and learning. I want to understand everything and everyone. Now, people are giving me so much time to think about how much have I developed while I have walked on this new way. Sometimes I do not understand why they leave me alone, but it might be I need to realize how I am managing my new life. It looks like I have to walk through the worst loneliness I have ever endured.

I do not feel ready to be alone, but I just think about God does not give me a cross I can not go along with. This is the first day of the rest of my life, and I need to PUSH. I do not swear I will not fall, but I do swear I will not give up.

Like the phoenix, rising from the ashes, my soul is rising from this hole, and I will succeed over this new phase of my life. Thanks to people who is getting closer to me, and special thanks to those who left me alone when I most needed them because now I realize I can not put my whole trust over all people.

*PUSH = Pray Until Something Happens

Just the Beginning of the Year

Today is just the newest day. I am not worry about what I have done or I have fail to do because now is not just a new day but a new year also. I want not to worry about my mistakes because I am not alone. I have a guard angel who takes care of my and my actions, even my relations. I just want to feel the heat of my really friends presence. I would not be worthy to have such presence of people who does not care about my past or my future, but they are who make my day brightly.

I am just a human looking for the half of my life, that special person who can guide me through the best way, and I know who would she looks like. If she does not want to take me as her cross is because I am not worthy. She would like me, I would like her; but I am just renewed and she does not realize I am just in front of her. I like you so much!!!!

Dear, My Lil Dear!!! hope you think of me as I do every day!!! enjoy your new year with the people you love, even if I am not in.

Once Again

Hello dEar, I haVe come back. I triEd to go away from you, but you put your whole streNgth To Hold me. I realize nOw that yoU are stronGer tHan anYone I knOw. I am just a body, a soUl, and a loser. You are the only one who Can have suppOrted me for a long time, So I am back in your arms. I wantEd to step out of you, even when you keep my alIve. I jusT want to stand by myself, bat I fell aparT. I know I deserve anytHing you hAve giveN me. I do not liKe to receive Some things I deserve, but honestly, I know I deserve them. Loneliness, please, let me know if this is the time to find that reason to go back, or this is the time to go away; I can not be with you so long since I do not want to. I just need some guide.