I am the least. I am the last. I am the only one guilty. Even though I an tired, I am still trying to be there. I just feel how my dream fades away. I just do not want to know it is over, I just want you here.
What is worth or not? All is about who, what, where, when, why; but there are no answers. I just want to wake up from this nightmare. All I can see at this moment is no more than a blind full mist.
My heart is just stopping beating since I can not handle you anymore. I have not much to offer because everything I had I have lost. I am not strong, just tough; which is completely different.
I can not sleep anymore, I can not eat anymore, I can not bear with it anymore, and I can not have control anymore. I wish I could, but I am unsuccessful. No matter how hard I try, it is not fruitful.
I will not say good bye, I will not say what I have changed, I will not say if I am better or worse, and I will not tell anything more; but this is not because I do not want, this is because my strength has been gone.
I am just a withered tomb, a walking death, anything that is there but is no one there, just an empty chest, just an empty soul, just an empty mind.
I am just ME, so if anybody asks me how am I? The answer is pretty simple " I just am!"
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Last Time
There was a time when everything worked as going down-hill. Some times there were some troubles, but we tried to overpass them, and we succeed. Today, everything is just the way it was prior, it has gotten some years, but it remains the same.
The sky continues being blue, the stars are still blinking, the face moon still shines. The only difference is that all of them just look towards a different side. My path has been broken, and it is full of up-and-downs; I even could say there are more downs than ups.
The face of the moon does not look at me anymore. Those two special stars I used to enjoy are gone too far. And the sky is just getting darker and darker. I have tried to run as fast as I can so I could be close enough not to lose the last sunshine, but I am not so good at it.
Each thing is going further and further, and my stone heart is getting heavier and heavier than I cannot continue running, I cannot even walk fast enough to reach its side, not even its back, and I am getting lost in the mist of my desperate thoughts.
It seems this is the time, it seems there is nothing left, and it seems that my time is over; but I do not want to give this up, yet I have tried, and it seems there is not any other way to escape.
The sky continues being blue, the stars are still blinking, the face moon still shines. The only difference is that all of them just look towards a different side. My path has been broken, and it is full of up-and-downs; I even could say there are more downs than ups.
The face of the moon does not look at me anymore. Those two special stars I used to enjoy are gone too far. And the sky is just getting darker and darker. I have tried to run as fast as I can so I could be close enough not to lose the last sunshine, but I am not so good at it.
Each thing is going further and further, and my stone heart is getting heavier and heavier than I cannot continue running, I cannot even walk fast enough to reach its side, not even its back, and I am getting lost in the mist of my desperate thoughts.
It seems this is the time, it seems there is nothing left, and it seems that my time is over; but I do not want to give this up, yet I have tried, and it seems there is not any other way to escape.
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