Just Asking

Is not it funny when you want something with all you strength, but it does not ever happen; then, just when you do not want it anymore, it appears?

Is not it funny when you want to chat with someone who is busy, and you wait for so long; then, when you both start chatting you both get mad because any of you do not understand each other's feeling?

Is not it funny when you try to find the right one, but that person never comes to your life; then, you realize that this person is already in your past? (the second part has not happened to me yet)

Is not it funny when you just want to feel beloved, and loneliness is the only stuff around you; then, you find that there is no one who loves you more than as a friend?

Is not it funny when people around you tell someone you are bad influence, and you just do not care; then, the people who said you are bad influence just need your knowledge?

Is not it funny when you spend so much time on something, and you work on it as hard as possible; then you realize that this time was wasted instead of spent?

Is not it funny when you are starving, and you want your favorite food; then when you get your meal, you do not feel appetite for anything anymore?

Is not it funny when you just want anybody to hug you, and you just smile at someone like asking for it; then, the person goes away without giving you not even a hand shake?

Is not it funny when you feel press on your chest, and you just want someone to caress you; then there is no one who want to caress you making you feel like the least person on earth?

Is not it funny when you read this blog, and you feel sorry for the stuff that have happened to you or feel sorry for the person who wrote this; then, you just want to try give hope yourself or to the person who wrote this?

Once Again

I know there is some time I have not written anything, but as you should know by this time, this blog is just to express myself when I feel down. Hopefully, one day I will write about my happiness instead. When I built this blog I put as a goal to write at least one each month. April has finished, but I did not write anything. I failed one goal, once again.

This time has been tough. People have walked in and out of my life. They came and went, but they have ever left something in my life, even if what they left was pain. This pain reminds me that I not a gold coin to be accepted for every one who knows me.

I might be wrong, and people around me would be just busy (like the song Stan). I just need vacations, not necessarily of studying but for taking a very deep sleep, and when I wake up, everything should be much better.

This is the time to go, to run away. I just would like to be strong enough to do so. SORRY people, I am not that strong. I just can not give up! I will stand up until my body and my soul collapse, but they have to collapse at the same time.